My Piece of Shit!

I applaud you all for concocting just sordid thoughts and details about stuff. I can sense that you all indeed have an amusing way of coming up with very intelligible responses. In fact, most of you have inked such powerful words. Moreover, you have crystallized them perfectly.

I respect everyone’s decision and take on things. Hell, I don’t own you and vice-versa. Truth be told, I am happy that this happened. At least now I know what I’m up against. I aint got any regrets. They’re just monumental waste of ma fuckin time.

Regarding that blog incident which I allegedly maintained two other facebook accounts where I wrote and lambasted myself and some people I deemed “family”, you have no idea how THANKFUL I am for you to throw that myth and accused me of such idiocy! I didn’t know that there are perfect people in this god forsaken world.

I should give you all medals for being able to stir my world, waste some tears and eventually ruined the craft that I have perfected – appearing unperturbed. Somebody give some people a trophy!!!! Yada-yada-yada!

If you all must know, I have exhausted all my efforts to change not because I felt that I was already becoming an extreme bitch but because my relationships with some people and their dealings with others have become so affected that I felt it was time to change paradigms. Have forgotten how much I tried to change the way I handle my temper and frustration all for the sake of world peace? Isn’t it a wonder how easily people forget? Thank you, all! Thanks for reminding me.

Obviously, we are still stuck in the dumb days. Let’s cut each other some slack and move on. This is not what I want. And to be brutally honest, —-deleted——. And —deleted—- is a luxury I can’t afford.

I’m sorry for freaking out. I can not control my stream of consciousness which is manifested through my writing. I write what I feel, you know? And besides, it has been ages since the last time I opened my mouth. For the months that have been, I opted to shut up and enjoyed the nonchalance of being scrutinized by people but sometimes, when the void has been filled and the threshold has been met, you just want to explode.

I often use explicit and obscene words and I apologized to the scarred many which have been affected by my writing. You know me. In person, I am anything but cruel and atrocious. I am no saint, that’s for sure.

Don’t confuse me with my writing. The writer in me does not define my persona. These are just my thoughts. Again, some of you know me. We’ve spent time together and I hope that in that brief period of time, you have gotten to know the real me.

Psycho
Attention – seeker
Pain in the corporate world’s ass

Pretty harsh words coming from people.
But hey, ask yourselves again. Am I pointing this to the right person?
Think twice before you start dropping bombs! That is if you even have the capacity to think!

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I will not retract nor modify this. I will stay true to my feelings. I may feel emotionally sober now but sometimes it pays to be honest. I find it cathartic.

I despised people who hide in anonymity when they got shit to say and end up using others as scapegoats! I am a pretty transparent person and I show my vulnerability more often than not. At times, people take advantage of this. I have been hurt a lotta times. I have cried a river. But I don’t want that shit right now. I have better things to do. I don’t know. Shit happens and life is full of it.